My 7 Week Vacation
I haven’t been home in 7 weeks, and here’s what I’ve learned:
You. Need. Community.
I don’t have any fancy metaphysical or spiritual background to give you. Not just now. I just had to get this off of my chest.
You need community, you need to feel loved, you need to feel grounded.
I have wanted to live in LA for most of my adult life and finally decided to make the jump in September of 2016. I told myself I would give it 1 year to try it out. I was so happy when I first moved – the city seemed like it was full of so much potential. I was catching up with old friends who had lived here and everything seemed… great.
However, over the next few months, I realize that what I was trying to do was similar to trying to fit a square peg into a round hole. Though I knew / know many people in LA that I went to school with – these people aren’t my tribe. I had lived in Atlanta for 12 years and built up a sense of community, of support and of friends that are more like family.
I would get together with my friends – but because we haven’t had 12 years of history, it almost felt like I was meeting them for the first time, having to relearn them.
I work mainly (ok, totally) off of my laptop and so most of my time is spent in the apartment that I’m writing this very post from.
LA had/has become very lonely.
I said “enough is enough” and decided to leave the city for awhile. I wanted to surprise my dad in Michigan for fathers day, go on another ayahuasca journey in Oregon (more on that in another post), and visit my friends in Atlanta. SO- I packed 2 huge suitcases and left.
I’ll save the entire details of my trip for another post – but I can tell you this. The love and support that I felt from my friends and family for these last 7 weeks have been indescribable. I didn’t realize how lonely and depressed I felt by separating myself from regular human connection.
The love vibrations that were surrounding me everyday – yes, because I was DEFINITELY couch surfing – uplifted my spirits to the heavens.
Those 7 weeks flew by fast. I didn’t feel depressed, I didn’t feel lonely, and I truly and deeply began to viscerally feel the value of my friendships and relationships.
It’s so important to be surrounded by those who care for you. You know that no matter what – they. have. your. back.
At this moment, I don’t know if I’ll stay in LA, move to Atlanta, or take the long backpacking voyage that I’ve recently fantasized. I’ve got 1 month and 25 days to figure it out….. To be continued.